i’m so upset right now. less than a week ago, i was so happy with the way things were going. and then one stupid conversation has completely ruined my ability to be content. gaaah, this is so complicated. you’re so complicated. i kind of just want to like, stop talking to you all together. but i can’t not talk to you for more than a day. and since you admitted still being involved with her .. it’s like we’re talking but no ones really saying anything. it’s just, “hey, what’s up, what are you up to, (flirting)” and a bunch of bullshit in between. i hate this. and i keep asking you, if you just want to stop while we’re ahead, and you say no every time. so obviously there’s something that you want from me. but what the fuck, it’d be nice if you knew what it was ….

